New beginnings

      Greetings! My name is Alissa and I am awesome. I am me. I am enough.
      This is my first blog. I am no writer (as you will see) but sometimes I have words that need to be said. I don't keep things inside. I say them. Often and loud. I thought I would try writing them. Sometimes I will be serious but I think most of the time I will be funny. That's who I am. I like to make people laugh.
      Today I wanted to write about what I am feeling about the new beginning in my life. It's what inspired me to blog. To be creative. There has been an awakening inside me. It's good.

 I keep thinking about events that took place the last few days. Hell the last few months. I keep wondering how I ended up here on cloud 9 with everything so right. It doesn't feel real. There is only one person that truly gets it and he is asleep next to me hopefully dreaming of happy thoughts and I wouldn't have it any other way.
        I feel all domesticated these days. A cat, a boyfriend and cooking. I love it. This is where I belong. This is the life I want. The life I deserve. Once upon a time I made a list of all the things in a relationship I desire. I have them. It's a surreal feeling. I asked the universe, I waited (oh, how I have waited) and then I received. One of the things that makes it so perfect is that fact that my love is appreciated and reciprocated. I don't come last. As I type that I feel it. I don't come last. So many times before I was last and not a priority. I had to fight for attention. For love. That isn't love.
        This isn't hard or difficult. It isn't complicated. It's easy. It's right. He gets me. No judgement, no jealousy, no controlling. Just love and appreciation. Happiness. Finally. I am enough. I am loved. I murdered him with my love and he saved me with his.